This has been a strange week. To make a long story short I learned about coworking this week, and I gradually realized that I’ve been dealing with my unemployment problem the wrong way.
Wednesday night I had these strange nightmares and night terrors, which were so incredibly vivid that I spent most of the day wondering what it all meant. I don’t remember any of the details, but the whole experience was like something out of a horror movie, and I was emotionally and physically drained all Thursday. This actually proved to be a good thing, because in spite of being in that state, I was able to make an important decision about my current situation.
I decided to go into business for myself. I’m going to try to get some venture capital, and maybe some grant money, to work on projects I’ve been wanting to work on, but too busy to work on because I was too afraid to take such a risk and try to start my own business. I’ve run the idea by some people whose opinions I trust, and they all think I’m doing the right thing.
I don’t think these things happen by chance. I’m convinced that I lost a job I wanted after only 6 weeks so I would confront this possibility seriously. It’s very difficult to describe how I’m feeling right now. This is one of those times when one would expect stress to get the better of me, but somehow some survival mechanism in my head just clicks and I am experiencing a strange sense of certainty about this decision.
This is an exciting moment in my life. I feel liberated.
